Written by: Sr. Mary Renée Kurczaba, CSSF
As a teenager, I had plans for my future—graduation from high school, a trip overseas, declaring a major in Psychology at a local college, and dating someone I hoped to marry. Much of it did happen but with a twist.
My high school graduation was a high point as it signaled a future opening up with possibilities. My parents treated me to a summer trip overseas to meet extended family members and that trip enriched me in ways I am still enjoying.
Upon return to the United States in August, I was preparing for my next educational experience. I heard through the grapevine that an elementary school friend of mine and a high school friend entered the Felician Sisters’ community. And that’s when things began to change for me—I could not get their decision out of my mind. I knew these girls, their families, and their plans for the future—what had led them to make this choice?
I thought about their decision frequently and one day I heard within myself the thought, “You belong there.” It wasn’t, “I belong there,” it was definitely, “You belong there.” Once that thought took hold, it was all I could think about. The idea of becoming a sister intruded my thoughts day and night. My life became similar to the narrative poem by Francis Thompson, “The Hound of Heaven,” which describes God’s persistent, lifelong pursuit and unyielding love. I could also compare my experience to the Yiddish proverb, “Man plans; God laughs.”
I was so drawn to this calling and the idea of becoming a sister that I eventually took matters into my own hands, made an appointment with the sister in charge at the time to discuss my options, and decided to join the Felician Sisters.
I felt sorrow for the one I thought I was destined to marry. But once I said “yes,” I experienced a sense of peace which prepared me for my new journey.
It’s been many years since that first “yes” and God continues to invite me to new ventures and ministries. So that first “yes” has been repeated many times over for God continues to pursue me with His unyielding love.
